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Sunday 10 September 2017
Dickie
September 10, 2017
When you have viewed the world from another perspective, you won't appreciate reality no more, its just like your adrenaline rush goes for it, all of a sudden your life revolves around something you were never into from the beginning. Then you applaud yourself and do things right, then you get a bunch of hypocrities into shit telling you all about the shit you already know, most times when they giving that long speech you just want to plug the ear phone. They never made sense non of them ever did, it was just me paying attention to their own selfish interest, not like they really care about the feelings you got. They pass law on you like your momma and papa, even your parents don't own you then why should their talks be, i remember swimming through an unimaginable swimming pool with lots of candies and ice creams; only to be awoken by the thoughts of what someone thought about me, what a waste of time for me to even think the person existed. The guardians of the galaxy should understand something, am not going to jumpstreet to meet ice cube expects its friday, what the hell am I even trying to say. My point is fuck sobriety, me being sober make me feel like a whimp who just got whipped in jail by a masculine oh! God let me not say it, boom and this whole life is back to nothing more than being sober. I have never knocked my teeth off, but have gotten into the cops hand for being too, clears throat, adult.
Call me Dickie am already a grown man at 14 Continue Reading
Call me Dickie am already a grown man at 14 Continue Reading
Friday 4 August 2017
A wondering mind
August 04, 2017
My eyes are filled with tears, I have been too busy for myself even disrespecting the art I love so much, not writing schooling got me twisted but my bipolar got me fucked up. Am not a perfect woman, have never been, my head hurts and my keypad stops happens when the drugs aren't there no more. Dorathy Parker and Hemingway told me writers were alcoholics, that shit got migraines blow my head up, early in the mornings when I wake up. I get so frustrated my arts aren't even appreciative enough, the pain killers wants more enough, while the prescriptions for my depression makes me wail out when am not on them. My eyes twitching it needs to stop, rehab is a fucked up situation, sex questions don't need no answers from this therapists who think they know too much. Another section at councillor unit, I wonder what advice they have to offer again, maybe just a couple of shits they do too and always tell others not to.
Excerpts from my up coming story.
I got you I know but you pay for it, lol. Continue Reading
Excerpts from my up coming story.
I got you I know but you pay for it, lol. Continue Reading
Monday 17 July 2017
By Comr Desmond Sleek facebook account
July 17, 2017
SATURDAY
what is saturday?
A day to pray
a day to rejig
a day to restrategize
a day to refocus, to maximize
when is saturday?
A day to reconvene, for house chores
a day to appear gorgeous
a day to appear nigh to church (sabbath)
which is saturday?
A day that succeeds friday
a day that precceeds sunday
a day he rested after creation. From dark zone
a day he commanded us to rest and keep sacrosanct
who is saturday?
A wo/man that's got to pray
a wo/man that's got to work, harder
on a saturday evening
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what is saturday?
A day to pray
a day to rejig
a day to restrategize
a day to refocus, to maximize
when is saturday?
A day to reconvene, for house chores
a day to appear gorgeous
a day to appear nigh to church (sabbath)
which is saturday?
A day that succeeds friday
a day that precceeds sunday
a day he rested after creation. From dark zone
a day he commanded us to rest and keep sacrosanct
who is saturday?
A wo/man that's got to pray
a wo/man that's got to work, harder
on a saturday evening
on a saturday evening Continue Reading
Sunday 9 July 2017
Today
July 09, 2017
I woke up heading straight for my phone, I checked the time on my device it was 12:09pm, I had slept my entire morning today and it wasn't funny. friends were already in the parlour, I don't remember dreaming, I don't remember nothing just sleep sleep sleep. I felt the whole of today was wasted and nothing good could come out from a wasted morning already, I was also reluctant to publish any article on this blog, I just wanted things to go the way it had been during those sad days. But come to think of it, it is indeed Sunday and my sleep was probably due to the time I slept 5:56am, maybe I don't want to blame myself for being lazy lol, but it is true to some extent.
After checking the time and with all those lazy hitting of the bed and using the pillow to cover my face, I realized thirty minutes was gone already, 'so what am I to do or write or even say today' I asked myself. With my phone in my hand I swerved on my Facebook page and replied crazily to crazy comments on my post, but wait a minute I had to pray, I did pray and I got this push to do anything. Nothing is ever bad as we think it is it, might be waking up to see no hope on getting a meal or even no hope on getting to that place or doing what you want, but how do you know there is no hope?. Now am stucked with getting my shoe laced and doing those act of valor, today was a day so is every other day, if you think today is not meant to be try playing God for one minute, you will just be disappointed on how the humans you created aren't greatful.
Be greatful no matter how your day started and how wasted it seems, only dead men don't have hopes. Continue Reading
After checking the time and with all those lazy hitting of the bed and using the pillow to cover my face, I realized thirty minutes was gone already, 'so what am I to do or write or even say today' I asked myself. With my phone in my hand I swerved on my Facebook page and replied crazily to crazy comments on my post, but wait a minute I had to pray, I did pray and I got this push to do anything. Nothing is ever bad as we think it is it, might be waking up to see no hope on getting a meal or even no hope on getting to that place or doing what you want, but how do you know there is no hope?. Now am stucked with getting my shoe laced and doing those act of valor, today was a day so is every other day, if you think today is not meant to be try playing God for one minute, you will just be disappointed on how the humans you created aren't greatful.
Be greatful no matter how your day started and how wasted it seems, only dead men don't have hopes. Continue Reading
Saturday 8 July 2017
MEMOIR ON MY JOURNEY SO FAR
July 08, 2017
There are those days when you be all weak and you want to just be all day like that, there are times when you run out of motivation and it makes you look down on yourself, and there is that period when so many kinds of events keep occurring and you just loose focus on all things. That have been the case for me and my interrupted postings here, I get to here those "don't give up motivation shit" but now I really see it as you not relenting, but rather you learning through the hurdles of it all. Being creative also have a break of its own don't feel frustrated when it comes, that's what have learnt from it all with the situations that all appeared in from of me, those condemnation and living up to the social status that family and friends always spit at your face with their examplary lifestyles. It all gets shaded with you getting depressed by it all; My life during the sad days went this way.
I saw a snake twice no one believed they all said my fantasy was the cause of it, but later it was being discovered it didn't give me joy as it was discovered, what if it wasn't found I guess probably they will forever tag me Steph the seer of things that was never discovered SMH.
My life has been spinning since then with me being caught between a chase of theft and an issue with disloyalty, people close to you can be the ones who do crazy stuffs to you, they don't wish you well menh just based on the issues on my sad days.
I got myself into a great depression due to absurdities and arrows directed to my heart while my eyes were wide open, I saw who and the person jeered at the pleasure of it all with sarcasm, spite and hate. What did I do to deserve this? This question and others kept coming through my mind while I wallow in pain on my bed.
My daily activities was hindered too with no purpose nor directions I was caught in a spider web, my personal diary is been left aching for informations and my privacy while my blog looked scanty as ever, with all this in mind I sat down philosophizing about My life.
Have lost it all I said to myself today at about 21:09pm, after updating my flipboard magazine and being a much of an opinion airer on my Facebook page, I just remembered my wattpad story just three and I really can't understand myself no more. I really don't want to end today like the way have wasted others my Aura most flow into me again, and that's how I am able to write this article, wasted/sad days ain't wasted afterall.
Lesson learnt from it all..
.Am not afraid to give up, it only makes me human.
.Wasted days are also learning days.
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I saw a snake twice no one believed they all said my fantasy was the cause of it, but later it was being discovered it didn't give me joy as it was discovered, what if it wasn't found I guess probably they will forever tag me Steph the seer of things that was never discovered SMH.
My life has been spinning since then with me being caught between a chase of theft and an issue with disloyalty, people close to you can be the ones who do crazy stuffs to you, they don't wish you well menh just based on the issues on my sad days.
I got myself into a great depression due to absurdities and arrows directed to my heart while my eyes were wide open, I saw who and the person jeered at the pleasure of it all with sarcasm, spite and hate. What did I do to deserve this? This question and others kept coming through my mind while I wallow in pain on my bed.
My daily activities was hindered too with no purpose nor directions I was caught in a spider web, my personal diary is been left aching for informations and my privacy while my blog looked scanty as ever, with all this in mind I sat down philosophizing about My life.
Have lost it all I said to myself today at about 21:09pm, after updating my flipboard magazine and being a much of an opinion airer on my Facebook page, I just remembered my wattpad story just three and I really can't understand myself no more. I really don't want to end today like the way have wasted others my Aura most flow into me again, and that's how I am able to write this article, wasted/sad days ain't wasted afterall.
Lesson learnt from it all..
.Am not afraid to give up, it only makes me human.
.Wasted days are also learning days.
Continue Reading
Tuesday 13 June 2017
A BIGGER PICTURE
June 13, 2017
It's been awhile I posted here, it was all due to my incapabilities, my hands couldn't move nor could I work properly. My self discovery mission came as like a quick notice being sent by the NEPA officials. I know you might not know what this means, the journey has been all but a blink, times passes but I want this one to pass more quickly. The molten heats my heart, my inner consciousness starves, it is in need of some kind of redemption maybe freedom. Freedom from what you might ask, it's a long story always a long story, but just know I won't even want even my enemies to face this. The path wasn't narrow nor smooth like I hoped, everything gets better, don't they? It definitely will by faith.
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